Tuesday, June 19, 2012
i really hope that he will reply.
hahas.
i can't believe that i actually did this.
how amusing.
been like checking my mail a billion times a day and all i get it "no mails"
i know, it has barely been 24hours==
and he is studying, but still, the anticipation
if i had the guts, i would have just used my real name to do this,
i wouldn't really call what i have done brave.haha. but it still requires me that bit of courage to press the "send" button.
haven't blogged anything abt OBS and EDS night.
i think having been through both has matured me alot.
especially for eds night, my last eds night.
its saddening, remembering the night of joy and fun and tears.
well, i didn't really cried. sucked it back in.haha.
it took me so long to enjoy the stage. so long to understand.
OBS was okay. it wasn't as bad as i had imagined but it was still tough.
i hated kayaking. at first it was ok, but as usual, my stamina sucks. and when i am tired,
i get whinny.
trekking was ok surprisingly, only that the load was horrid esp near the end,
where my back hurts like shit. perhaps thats the reason that i have back pains now==
to me, eds night is obviously the more memorable one. obs is just a part and parcel of my life i guess. like an event that just took place. but eds is filled with joy this year. we got alot closer. esp with the rest not just in our own small groups. we bonded tgth at a grp of year fours:)
yunyi at 1:06 AM
Sunday, May 13, 2012
Finally, my long waited guitar ensemble concert is over.
Had dance in the morning, and shopped for obs stuff with kaizheng and vivianne.
Lunched at Hot Tomatoes. it was pretty good. MUCH better than pastamania. 500% better.
Got tiger balm insect repellent and wet tissue.
Its a great night at the concert. i had so much fun.
but i guess it has proven that i am quite an extremist?
this infatuation is getting out of hand. seriously, it is too much. still got the excited feeling now. overly excited.
some crazy fangirl over here.
goodness, if this is only infatuation, what will happen if its love?
totally crazy. its gd to have a craze though.
lemme be mushy. no one is replying my msgs, so i have to let it out here.hahas.
this is one of the best concerts ever. though the songs could be boring at times.
for the first half, he was blocked by the conductor.LOL. i was like totally craning my neck to see him. but i gave up in the end. perhaps another reason was because he looked really weird when playing guitar. and i didn't want to ruin my perfect impression of him:)
he looked so good in his home clothes.
so charming, at least to me.
he body structure looks so nice.
total infatuation
he was like appearing every 5min i guess?
performed for at least 6pieces i guess? was on stage for like, more than 1/3 of the time.
the best thing was, the last performance. it was awesome.
at times, i was giggling away, like a mad women that kept on punching kaizheng's arm especially nearing the end of the concert.
but i guess this infatuation is really superficial, as usual, isn't it?
thats just me? i supposed. its really difficult to like someone, in terms of crush, anyway. you need catalyst such as friends. i supposed its a kind of pressure? more accurately, influence. for both times, i was influenced by people. Hence, these type of infatuation doesn't last. you can only admire him from faraway. the infatuation feeds on your own imagination. the person that you like actually do not exist. it is just like an, perhaps idol? or what not. he is just a substitution for the emptiness. in the first place, he existed due to the existence of my emptiness and boredom.
Well, i supposed it is also the case this time. i have never truely liked someone before.
but anyway, back to the performance.
initially, i was hoping that they could stay on stage, like the usual concerts, in which they take photos and what not with their friends.
however, the performers went back to the back stage instead.
Was disappointed.
But, the best part was. he somehow rushed to the concert hall, and went past me.
That instant. felt so good. LOL
obviously right.
By the way, i love him playing the piano. but i prefer guys who play violin.hahas.
i can totally imitate his movements. okk. i am so evil. but its really funny.
the after effect is still here. cannot be erased. bringing it to the level camp
yunyi at 1:24 AM
Sunday, March 4, 2012
it's been so long.
looked at some of the other blogs,
how nostalgic.
the days whereby i have a crush.
so fun, now that i look at it, life is such a bore now.
hahahahahhahhahaahhaha. so embarrasing.
where i look at his pictures, stalking him.
been so long ever since i went to that blog. so hilarious now.
stomach hurts like shit.
yunyi at 7:15 PM
Friday, August 26, 2011
my chemistry is really terrible=.=
its in a state of mess yet i dun wanna clean it up
i dun have a passion for it
imma just studying for the sake of studying it-.-
cos i dun wanna fail it but apparently it doesn't work
failed 3 outa 4 test ...
9/20,15/20,7/20,16/40
WTF?!
and technically speaking i only didn't study the third test.
wthh?!
this is bullshit
...
yunyi at 7:54 PM
Sunday, July 24, 2011
an emotional and fun day
firstly, i am tanned
its the first time that i have had gotten this tan,
walked so far
to and fro sentosa
my entire skin is red, but imma glad
cos this is kinda the only way to prolong today
emotional
tears and everything
i may not be very close to the seniors,
but many things that they say relates to us.
it just shot through my heart
and tears just started rolling
the times where i am demoralised, and everything.
disappointed and wanting to give up
the times i've been through,
though i look like i couldn't have been bothered about it,
it does hurt me alot
even though it happens everytime,
in which i told myself to get used to it,
but i just can't
i still want to shine,
i still want to try my best.
perhaps i just didn't work hard enough
anyway, i digressed
the main point is,
i am not the only one,
many seniors have gone through this
the way they say is totally hit me hard
eds, eds, eds
you are the best and most unique cca ever
yunyi at 11:07 PM
Tuesday, July 19, 2011
she is the first one
to be so arrogant to me
as a person who i think have minimal authority
but she encouraged me to revenge, not exactly, but somewhat like that
to do well myself, to prove to her wrong.
many thanks to her in giving me a motivation in my studies.
Anger ventilated often hurries towards forgiveness; anger concealed often hardens into revenge. Edward G. Bulwer-Lytto
love this quote. but i think this will hurry towards forgiveness. since i had ventilated it out already. but i have been angry for a day. this is really bad for my health.
oh well, this is gonna be a long battle, where imma going to see her nearly everyday. hope my anger will cease to be and make life easier for me. and not to see her as an prick in my eye
yunyi at 8:03 PM
Friday, June 10, 2011
changed to mozila from internet explorer.
explorer is far too slow.
take ages just to load a page.
yunyi at 10:05 PM